a walking paradox.
a walking paradox.
I'm Jeannie
Tumblr is my vacation. My escape from reality. I live in a pathetic town with even more pathetic people. Here's my story...

I suffer from bipolar and depression. I have anxiety. I get panic attacks. I was self harm free for months, but broke recently. The first time I tried to kill myself I was eight. Last time was over a year ago, and I am so proud of that. I was sexually assaulted when I was nine. No one knows, and I'll continue to keep it that way. I have an alcoholic mother, a dad who I love more than anything, but don't see often, and a schizophrenic aunt. All in all, my life's fucked up.

I have the greatest boyfriend one could ask for. He gets me through everything, & without him, I doubt I'd be who I am today, or even here. He's my other half, and it's fantastic. It's great to have someone genuinely care. I know I can go to him for absolutely anything. I can say that life has improved greatly since he came into my life.

If you want to know something, ask. Don't be shy. Take that cursor to the bottom left corner, hit the plus sign/Open Menu, and "Questions are Welcome." Ask me things, and if you ever need to talk, talk to me. I'm here for you. I remember what it was like not having anyone, and I will not let someone else go through that pain, I know how much it hurts. Stay lovely.
a walking paradox.

“i don’t remember the last time i felt like i could breathe theres a fucking hole in my chest where my lungs and heart should be i have this constant feeling that I’m bursting into flames and then the wind storms in and scatters my ashes over and over how is it possible i can feel everything and nothing at once am i dead inside or in love with the world i don’t know what to do or who i am i don’t know anything anymore all i know is i don’t have much time left and I’m fading away why doesn’t anyone notice I’m going insane I’m not okay nothing is okay everything is going wrong and i can’t breathe i can’t breathe i can’t breathe”
"at this time last year
i was a mess and i feel
like a mess again"
A messy haiku - jw (via 5weetsorrow)

La Dispute - Andria